memories

  • Ben & Jerry’s

    So I am an [almost] rabid fan of Ben & Jerry’s Ice Cream.  Shameless too, in this admission.

    My Ben & Jerry’s CRAZE started here:

    2004-07-03 TIP MG 0012004-07-03 TIP MG 1392004-07-03 TIP MG 1412004-07-03 TIP MG 1422005-06 MGF TiP PiX 031

    With these girlies:
    2004-07-03 TIP MG 079
    2004
    2005-06 MGF TiP PiX 081
    2005
    2006-6-11 Melin's Fourth Year TiP 036
    2006

    Oh, how we’ve grown since.

    Then in 2007 my family toured the B&J Factory in Waterbury, VT:

     2007-8-20 Boston, Dartmouth, Vermont 701
    It was the Cinnamon Bun flavor, which was new then =)

    2007-8-20 Boston, Dartmouth, Vermont 709

    Everything there is so cute!!! O_O!!!

    2007-8-20 Boston, Dartmouth, Vermont 6992007-8-20 Boston, Dartmouth, Vermont 0622007-8-20 Boston, Dartmouth, Vermont 7002007-8-20 Boston, Dartmouth, Vermont 0092007-8-20 Boston, Dartmouth, Vermont 007


    And now, here in 2009 is a picture of me with JERRY from Ben and Jerry’s!!!!!
    Me and Jerry
    Sorry for the bad quality!  I forgot my camera so I had to deal with my cell phone (better than nothing I suppose!!). =)

  • Time

    Time.

    My enemy!  What the hell; it lays great friendships in ruins, or in tattered awkward phrases. 

    I cannot help feeling ashamed of all the friendships that I have failed to maintain.  It is hard keeping together all the ones that do remain.

    Friends.  I remember here, first ‘best friend’: it was pre-kindergarten, and we would play doctor together with our plastic kits.  Swing sets, sand boxes.  Oh, we loved sifting sand.

    Then there was the one in kindergarten–we met on a tire swing, wearing dainty little dresses. 

    Life kept changing for me–I switched schools, from Cornerstone to South Ocala–Cornerstone was too boring, all we did was play dress-up, so I had to go.  New friends, another ‘best friend’, we played with Barbie then and walked to each others houses–we were in neighboring neighborhoods.  Icing on the nose on birthdays, bright-colored obviously fake make-up, not subtle at all.  She moved away.  Alabama strikes my life a bit later again.

    A bit later, a few years, third grade: new circle of friends with a new school, now Dr. N.H. Jones Elementary.  This time, we pretend to be Spice Girls, and have mini fashion shows.  We are the stars.

    The year changes, new classes, new friends–rarely see those past Spice Girls again.  The new friends, now numbering 4 of us in a tight group: we attempt to design an environmental car in a secret project–we collaborated by bringing in car designs and creating ways to self-generate power, i.e. solar, motor…we’re a serious bunch, but fun loving.  One moves to Gainesville, but the 4 of us keep in touch well until the end of 6th grade, when another moved away to South Florida and then Louisiana…I also leave, switching schools again (Howard –> Osceola).  The foursome, we occasionally meet up year to year.  Miracles of technology :) ..yes I am grateful!  Then we have had patchy communication–a few had Xanga, though probably no more.  Facebook, yes we’re all there now.  But after middle school, I can’t say our friendships have quite been the same.  Nonetheless, they are huge parts of my life (i.e. my fish-fetish ;D).

    From my Howard days also; we would escape the boredoms of home ec. and other Wheel classes together through stories and drawing…I learned a lot from her and we had a lot in common.  It was hard leaving Howard, certainly not for the academic rigor (ha.), but because of the friends I had established there.

    Then, TiP.  I could dedicate pages to my friends from there.  And those friendships, had distance not been an issue and school work–life and business/busy-ness, would have lasted–forever?  My roommate my first year easily became one of my best friends in 3 short weeks.  Despite non-overlapping music tastes, we found so much in common and had so many inside jokes.  We attended dances together, giggled, ‘stole’ (borrowed) hats, ate ice cream, and watched kids through water balloons out windows and light socks on fire (etc.).  We kept in touch for a year or so, but that gradually diminished.  (Why did so many people leave Xanga?  We kept in touch so very well when she still used it..).  Time?  Perhaps I’ll blame time again.

    Second year I escaped with two more best friends–I still keep in touch with both, though decreasingly.  So I won’t elaborate, I’ll try harder, time allowing?  One has a LiveJournal, now book-marked for better keeping in touch.  The other, I rely on snail-mail.

    My third year friends, SO MANY NICE PEOPLE!  But that happened every-year.  There is one that I started writing again.  I hope we can pick up what’s left and improve it(?).  Then, between 3rd and 4th year, a new friend appeared.  Alabama!  Ah!  Long distance.  Yes, we were friends a year before…

    Fourth year.  Cool!  We’re still keeping in touch.  Time hasn’t done it’s damage here yet too, except to make me a little grouchier when time elapses between visits.  Cooler yet, it has been over 2 years and 1 month since we’ve begun…Thanks Skype, thanks AIM, thanks T-Mobile!  Aieeeeeeee.

    SSTP:  AH! 2, but I failed to keep in touch.  I failed.  And I will take the blame, though I point my fingers at the clock.

    High school.  Ah!  This is the cross-road!  I always choose: keep in touch.  Does it happen?  I don’t know!!  I always hope so, but that doesn’t mean that it will.  Friends, let’s not let time tear us apart!!

    My sister (always)!  A best friend for life!  But Duke!  You have taken her so far, and she is amongst friends that are strangers to me!  Our common area of a Venn Diagram shrinks!!  It’s harder to relate!  :( :( :(   We rely on breaks.

    What to do?  How to preserve?  How to defeat time??? 

  • Lalala…the pages sing in Cyrano

    It’s been a while, again, since I’ve updated. Last time I wrote I was still 17. I am 18 now. I am old! How dreadful. And yet–I can do more things–more liberty–an adult? How interesting. I haven’t really thought of it until now.


    So, I have to dual enroll next semester. At the present, Brittany and I are signing up [hopefully] for Living with the Environment and Ceramics. I’m pretty pumped about that, I’m just worried about the work load. But Ceramics! Art! At last! It has been a while since I’ve been able have an art class. I love thinking creatively. I love Photoshop and such. I just hope the teacher is good, and won’t be forcing us to create and follow certain molds and get angry if we don’t.



    It’s not like life has been that fantastic anyways. It’s not horrible, but it could be a lot better. I feel a little distressed in a lot of classes. In several anyways. So normally I feel motivated to do my work because it interests me, not for grades. But lately, I feel like I’m doing a lot of busy work, and the busy work must be done only for the grades, and I hate being driven by these numbers. I like to do my best, but why are we being subjected to busy work as seniors?


    Haha, Mom’s grumbling because dad just bought a white toilet instead of an almond colored one, and she seems pretty exasperated about it. Now she is lecturing him about not noticing and not fulfilling the requirements she set for buying a new toilet. How strange. My parents can be really funny sometimes . The other day, Mom got a Facebook, and insisted that I get a (fluff)friend so she could pet it and earn “munny”, so after a few lectures and begging I got a (fluff)friend (and so I waste all my spare time petting pets to earn money…wait, what spare time?). Well, so my mom is an obsessive birder. Well, dad was watching the television, and he saw a bird he deemed extraordinary and was like “Sunnie! Come see this bird!”..well, mom said, “NO! I’m petting my (fluff)friend right now!”. I guess even aggressive birders have limits.


     


    Jason’s in Marietta–3 hours closer than normal..still 6 hours away–for Science Bowl.


    I miss all my TiP friends. It has been a long time since I’ve talked to most of them. And I miss a few of my SSTP chums too. =( I feel kind of lonely in Ocala. People here don’t seem to know me. And I felt especially sorry when I realized, I’ve been in the same school for four years, and most of my peers hardly know me. I’ve been told that people adore me and I’m so cute, but what do they know? And do they even care? No, not really. And I can sense that. A lot of people don’t even listen to what I say. I end up talking, trailing off, and no one notices…that’s why at SSTP I was surprised when people actually would go back to what I was talking about if they interrupted me while I was talking, or when I trailed off like that. Here, no one seems to notice or care. And I wonder if I’ll even miss this place and the people when I leave, because I feel so isolated and like an outsider. I want to talk to people, but when I hover near them, I can’t think of a thing to say. Or they would rather listen to someone else. I hover near groups and listen and laugh, but before long, everyone ditches me, and I’m stuck by myself or something. What a loser. So instead I become lost in some thoughts or start to observe people and wonder why everyone else can get along with others and such. How do those people do it–they’re smart, talented, pretty, social/in touch with the modern world, and everyone likes them/talks to them/laughs with them? I constantly feel like the odd one out. I don’t even like parties..everytime I go, I hope “this one will be better! I will hang out and have fun“. I mean the parties look nice, and seem nice for everyone else–I feel happy since I know others can atleast enjoy themselves. I’m glad others can be happy. I just wish I could feel naturally comfortable with more people. =. What can I do to fit in better? I feel so socially awkward all the times, nowadays. I didn’t use to?





    I’m so happy about reading Cyrano, in English! What a dork! But the play is just so funny and interesting. [The nose scene! It is brilliant]. But perhaps this is why no one wants to talk to me!! All I do is talk of school. But it’s practically my life though! I’m not doing much outside of school other than school work..? That is pathetic. Oh, and clubs, but that is part of school too, isn’t it?





    Today I dropped my brother off at Dr. N.H, Jones Elementary School’s Fall Festival, and walked around for a bit there. That’s where I went for elementary. I saw my fifth grade teacher Ms. Dickey, and she announced my presence to other teachers (who probably have forgotten my name of face since..) who also greeted me warmly. I do miss that school–a time when life was natural–we could explore, play games, work in gardens, build toad abodes, chase butterflies, read books together, we could learn, we could imagine, we could sing, we could be in plays, & everything. Life was so pleasant then. Where was the stress? What stress? The only stress then was forgetting homework at home or emotional stress from a [lame] crush or something. Other than that, life was happy and every moment worth living for. Now? Not as much. Things seem less ideal. I’m not cynical, but I have seen reality, and I can see that what is ideal to me is not applicable to everyone. I wonder if ignorance really is bliss–then my cat must have the best life in the world (as SMART as he is…good thing he is cute–he’s not very friendly, so who would want him? Just kidding).


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    Here are some pictures I took at the Ocala National Forest (area) a few months ago!



    Jason might like this web..




    Not a good place to sit..


     
    I love the color gradient of the berries here =)

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