One of my best friends, Brittany, gave me a giant Nemo stuffed animal (since I have a fishy fettish!) for my 17th birthday, and attached 17 notes from 16 other friends wishing me a happy birthday .  <3!!!!!  =)
  
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The new Death Cab for Cutie EP, The Open Door EP, is awesome .  Some common threads exist between the songs lyrics (I smell fear for committment?).  I like them a lot though, and am itching to go to the concert!!  I can't wait!  But at the same time I can wait, since not too long afterwards I have an interview to do.  Yiikes!

 

I think my humility some times undermines my apparent confidence.    I'm actually very stubborn when I am confident about things, though I will be subtle with it.  My professor who is doing one of my letters of recommendation mentioned this, and it worries me, since confidence is important (and who wants a doctor who isn't confident?).  He is right, I need to show more outwards confidence, but this is something I have struggled with for a while.  Because some people are terrible about balancing confidence with cockiness, and those boastful people are often times outspoken and annoying; but then I'm mousy and discreet.  I don't want to seem like that (boastful or thinking my idea is better) when I am sure about an answer but people are offering contradicting opinions (sort of like that scene in Mean Girls, where she's being tutored by the guy, but knows that he is wrong...), since I definitely give thought to others' opinions.  Siiiigh.  I will have to figure this out sometime.  How to be confidence without being a burden.

Whew!  Done with my presentation for Religion and PC; now I need to write the paper for that! ! 

I've been spending my days creating a website for the American Red Cross Club of our school.  This has been especially exciting since it is entirely MYYYY brainchild!  The template was designed by me, and EVERYTHING!   This is new since all the other websites I've had were only edited by me. 

It's not complete yet, but here's a link (in case you're interested) !   It has made me immensely happy in the past few days.  Sometimes the tedious and tiny things that drive me craaaaazy make me really happy.  Like this website, because it is looking pretty good, in my opinion .  It makes me feel like all my childhood curiosity is meaningful and useful.

I have to write my term paper for my religion and popular culture class--working on it!  A LOT of brainstorming.  But I've taken some REALLY nice study breaks =).

Friday--I went to my first college party   It was a pre-party actually, but I skipped going to the club since it isn't my cup of tea (&can't be too tired for Saturday, etc.!  Need to have energy for paperss).  I left early, but the reason I went was mostly to see many of the friends that I haven't seen as a result of remaining in my dorm and only studying .  It's nice seeing friends!!  I left early with Shireen; then I went to Relay for Life and hung out a bit before returning to sleep!

Today, I went to a concert for my study break.  Cute is What We Aim For was the band we watched.  I felt bad because the crowd was so lame, and I didn't really know their music.  But Christina loooooves them so it was fun watching her rock out to the music.  But I think they have another fan too , so despite the lame other concert-goers...Which reminds me I need to diversify my music taste.  There are only a few bands I listen to (& ADOOREE).  I should try not to be a music snob. 

Music=life.

& I've been designing the website for USF's American Red Cross Club.  It's beauuutiful.  Teehee.  And extremely tedious and tiring.  Siiigh.

A week of failures! 

Sigh!!  Not to mention I've lost so much sleep only to do poorly; depressing, isn't it?  And I'm trying to shake off the lonely feelings I keep getting.  I am so cyclical...I have some extremely happy days, and then days where life doesn't seem to have a meaning or point.  I guess I'm in the low end of that cycle at present.  =( 

On another note, I hope Michelle beats that snake!  Back-stabbing bishes aren't cool. 
I can't imagine betraying a friend over my ambitions.  Unless they hurt me first, but even then I would only try to reverse whatever about me they tarnished.  I'm sort of passive like that.  Aggressive and SUPER ambitious people make me nervous; even if they're friends.  In general though, tt's easy to gain my trust and loyalty, but it's a lot harder to get it back if there's even a hint of betrayal.  After that point, I can still be a friend, but I'll be weary and aloof; maybe a little dubious too.  I guess this cycle never ends; after the NHS drama back in high school, I thought that by college people would become a little more chill and such.  I hadn't felt so betrayed by a group of friends before that, and hope it never happens again.  Never never never!  If only there were more people with similar temperaments as my own; I am happy for the success of my friends and acquaintances, as long as they earned it.  In fact, that applies for myself too--if I earned whatever success I earned, then I celebrate.  Wishing anyone unwell or manipulating others for one's own success is evil. 

I just got back from Chicago last night.  The weather there was chilly and windy, as expected (but pleasant, as opposed to the already oppressive heat settling upon Florida; Tampa anyways).  As nice as it was in Chicago, I realized that I am not made for the city. 

Pros and Cons of City Life (in my country mouse eyes)

Pros	Cons
Much food variety (!!) and often for good prices due to competition	[Often] dirty/smelly
Easy transportation (bus, subways, taxis)	Transport is convenient but expensive (in Chicago, $2.25 for the bus! And taxis are insane!) +traffic
Much to do (plays, clubs, shopping, operas, you name it!)	Constant construction --> noises and dangerous walking conditions
Nightlife	Occasional leery people
History and cool architecture/buildings.	Little privacy.  Buildings are so close to each other that it is easy to peer into your neighbors den.
Easy recycling	Less shrubbery/green
	Urban sprawl--everything is far away (it takes several bus routes and or subway stops to get anywhere)

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Zoom in on the last one (look at Jason, what a dork )

Jason looks like -->  :O

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I got tickets to the Death Cab for Cutie concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)! 
I can't WAIT! <3 <3 <3!

(Hope Jason doesn't see this! Just kidding).

I saw this article and it made me laugh:

Clofu? Clooney flavored Tofu?

Just
when we thought we’d seen it all from PETA — the animal rights
organization known for high-profile celebrity ads — President Ingrid
Newkirk has come up with this: George Clooney-flavored tofu.

In a letter sent to the actor, Newkirk said that PETA has been
offered his gym towel (obtained right here in D.C.!) and wants to use
his sweat to create Clooney tofu that will “spare animals from being
killed for the table.” She went on to explain that the science is
pretty simple, like “making artificial chicken flavor for instant
gravy.”

Newkirk, a big fan of Clooney, told us yesterday that the towel was
offered by a PETA supporter with the idea of auctioning it off, but she
immediately thought of using his perspiration for bean curd: “I
thought, ‘What would make tofu more attractive to people?’ … I can see
people having parties to try CloFu.”

Clooney’s not biting. “As a mammal, I’m offended,” he told us yesterday through his rep.

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Today is the birthday of several of my friends.  I woke up with this strange memory:

Last time the four of us met up in Gainesville--Brandy, Mya, Gail, and myself, we met up at the Oak's Mall, and pretty much tried catching up on all the years that had elapsed since last seeing each other.  Gail had to leave early, (she's a birthday girl today, so I think thinking of her triggered this random memory), so I don't think she was with us during this part of my memory:

We walked into Spencer's (filled with some funny random stuff and some disgusting stuff, a store I don't usually visit), and there we saw a boa with fake marijuana leaves, as opposed to feathers.  A few seconds later, this man stumbled past us and started caressing the marijuana leaves/boa and moaned, "Why isn't it real?!".  We tried not to laugh as we ran from the store.

In some ways, I feel bad for addicts.  On one hand, they brought their own plights upon themselves.  But after a certain point, I guess it is something hard to control.  I hope the guy we came across was just doing that for laughs.
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Gail's in Austria now, but I believe she will be coming back soon.  She went there to study for a year before starting college.  I saw Brandy and Gail before Gail left for Austria, but I haven't seen Mya since that day.  It is sad to see how friends can drift so far into awkwardness.  Especially since technology has become so powerful.  Maybe some day by fate all our paths will again cross.  Or maybe one day we will plan to meet again.  I can make a list of friends that I wish I could get back in touch with again, but time has made everything awkward.

Normally I don't like to dance, and I don't like to [admit to] watch[ing] silly animal videos [heh], but this just made me want to dance.  

Thanks Yahoo!®, for all the ridiculous news, and for these cute/lame vids.  Haha, I zoned out watching part of it, so it looked interesting cross-eyed.  Ahhh!

I'm supposed to be studying chemistry right now.  I know, not fun.