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  • [News Article] Volcano's Eruption Creates Colorful U.S. Sunsets

    [For those with the chance, check out the sunset!  I'm curious about this, but here in Florida all we have are rainy nights; not so colorful, rather gloomy.  I would just paste a link, but years from now if I'm digging through my own posts the link will have become expired, and I'd have no idea what I was talking about...]. :(

    Clara Moskowitz
    LiveScience Staff Writer
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    livescience Staff Writer
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    Wed Jul 1, 11:10 am ETundefined

    Many people in the United States and Europe are seeing
    gorgeous lavender sunsets lately thanks to the eruption more than two weeks ago
    of Russia's Sarychev Peak volcano.

    The volcano blew its top June 12, generating a remarkable
    shock wave
    in the atmosphere seen in a photo taken by astronauts. It also hurled
    massive plumes of sulfur dioxide into the air, and that material has been
    circling the globe.

    Deep purple hues and ripples of white characterize the
    spectacular views
    the past few evenings.

    The phenomenon occurs when the ash
    and fine particles
    sprayed high into the atmosphere by the volcano scatter
    light. The sulfur dioxide ejected by Sarychev Peak interacts with the
    atmosphere to form tiny particles called sulfate aerosols.

    Light scattering happens all the time. It's why the sky is
    blue and sunsets often red or orange. Particles in the atmosphere scatter
    short-wavelength blue light more effectively, to make the sky appear
    blue
    . When the sun sets, its rays have more atmosphere to travel though to
    reach our eyes, so more of the long-wavelength red light makes the journey.

    Lately, the volcanic aerosols are combining with the normal
    scattering particles to create more obstacles for light to pass through,
    increasing the coloring effect.

    "I could tell, late in the evening that there was
    'something' to the clouds, the lighting as the sun was setting was off, so I
    found a nice view of the horizon and waited," wrote Liem Bahneman of
    Kirkland, Washington, who posted photos he took of the sunset on June 28 on
    SpaceWeather.com. "The aerosols light up well after the normal sunset has
    expired, so it takes some patience, but it is well worth it to experience the
    violet."

    "This evening, the
    volcanic aerosols were still visible over Kentucky," Rick Schrantz, of
    Nicholasville, Ky., wrote on SpaceWeather.com. "The delicate wispy
    streamers were a beautiful background for a few regular clouds."

    Similarly colorful scenes were spotted across the Northern Hemisphere
    in August 2008, when Alaska's Kasatochi volcano
    erupted. One of the most dramatic volcanic eruptions in modern history - Pinatubo's
    1991 explosion in the Phillipines - ejected so much material into the
    atmosphere that global temperatures dropped by about 0.9 degrees Fahrenheit (0.5
    degrees Celsius). The last time Sarychev Peak blew was 1989.

  • I'm so exhausted.  I have no idea why.
    Monday exam (phys 2), I did good enough, though I made one stupid mistake and didn't really know the other one (20/22; but they t-score it :) ).
    Today's exam (genetics), think I did alright also.  The material is interesting, captivating, and exciting. 

    Wish there were some salves for broken hearts.  ><  I spend so much of my free time struggling to clear my mind from the hurt, but the numb feelings I am ending up with are kind of exhausting me.  I struggle so much to keep feeling human and stop deceiving myself, but I feel hurt. 

    One day I might be free from this hurt. 

    The Human Condition--René Magritte
    human condition
    Who knows what lies behind the image that we see before our eyes. 

    Those books poisoned me into a being a hopeless romantic.  Fail!

  • Some things in life are too beautiful to let slip through your hands.
    2008-12-25 Christmas inLA 364
    [Joshua Tree National Park, Winter 2008]

    Nothing like a little peace, family, nature.
    (I consider some friends as family ;) ).
  • What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. (James 4:14)

    I am not afraid of death, only regrets that I would have if I was unable to say or do things that I truly felt. 

    I don't really like feeling bridled and restrained in what I can say, but there are some things that just are not right to say.  I cannot help but to hope that this is just a time that we can take to grow up, and one day we might be together again.  But even that thought isn't even right. 

    When I come to believe something, I tend to develop an almost unshakable belief in it.  It takes me a while to start believing things, anyhow. 

    It has been more than a month since Jason dumped me, and I am regaining a little strength.  Step by step, one day I might be alright again.  But I don't honestly think that I can love the way I did before.  I spent more than three years building him into my life, and he shaped the way I think and act, since he entered my life at such crucial points.  We were so young, but I thought we grew up together and were ready to face the future together.  We are still young.  Something in the bottom of my heart tells me that things would have been perfect had I tried to go to school somewhere closer (what if?).  But I don't know, and it is too late, I think.  Who knows, maybe there is a chance for new 'love', but I feel like real love is a one time thing.  I was too naive and let my guard completely down.  I gave too much.  That is just too dangerous; but at the same time, that is just how I am, once I trust. 

    It is hard for me not to be angry at myself for reading all those books that gave me delusional beliefs in love.  Those haunting and endless loves.  Those books (Austen, Bronte sisters, etc.) kind of turned my mind and heart into mush. 

    Maybe this is the time for me to grow a shell to hide myself from the realities of those things; or maybe I should just learn to be vulnerably strong.  I don't really know.  It is a turning point in life and I am not really sure where I am to go.  I don't really want to change; I actually like myself the way I am (except I wish I was a little more pro-active instead of passive; and maybe I can use more confidence).  But then I hurt so much, and dwelling on the past and the would have been future just crush me.  The pain kind of reassures me into knowing that what I felt was real, but I don't need pain to know that it was real (bleed just to know you're alive).

    Ah, I don't know.  I'm not done sorting through my hurt.  But I am grateful to my family and friends who have been helping me through this tough time.  There is one friend I have yet to speak to, but I know she'll be understanding, once I reach out for the help.  I just need to start composing my message; not sure when I can.  One month, and I still feel raw.  But I am getting number, like a metal friend, a robot.  (Good and bad.)

  • Sigh.

    It would have been three.

  • I haven't posted in a while, and that's because my general mood is along the depressed side.  I am still trying to put life together, trying to regain my appetite, energy, and such.  I feel like such a robot, compartmentalizing everything so I can concentrate on school work, and it sucks.  At least the material is interesting, but that isn't comforting at all.  I pretty much just ache inside whenever I let my feelings run for real. 

    Anyways, for a long time I could not understand why we needed seat belts in airplanes--it isn't like the plane can put on sudden brakes in the middle of the air that can cause whiplash, the way it can happen in cars.  But I've been reading articles about the Air France crash, and came across this (from and Australian emergency landing):

    Qantas Flight 72 had been airborne for three hours, flying uneventfully on autopilot from Singapore to Perth, Australia.
    But as the in-flight dinner service wrapped up, the aircraft's
    flight-control computer went crazy. The plane abruptly entered a smooth
    650-ft. dive (which the crew sensed was not being caused by turbulence)
    that sent dozens of people smashing into the airplane's luggage bins
    and ceiling. More than 100 of the 300 people on board were hurt, with
    broken bones, neck and spinal injuries, and severe lacerations
    splattering blood throughout the cabin. (Read a Q&A on how to survive a plane crash.)

    "It
    was horrendous, absolutely gruesome, terrible," passenger Jim Ford told
    Australian radio. "The worst experience of my life." Passenger Nigel
    Court said he was terrified to watch people not wearing seat belts - including his wife - fly upward. "She crashed headfirst into the roof above us," he told a reporter.
    [http://news.yahoo.com/s/time/20090603/wl_time/08599190242100]

    I forgot about downward motion.  So, buckle up even in flight, and stay safe.

    I can't stand to think about

    a heart so big it hurts like hell

    Oh my God I gave my best,

    but for three whole years

    to end like this
    ...

  • I walked around in the woods and ran one lap on the track.  I ran up and down stairs, and during all that time, my head did not clear.

    The weather was deliciously dark, and the wind was chilly.  Sadly, it only sprinkled a little, and there were dead dehydrated animals (frogs, lizards) scattered all over the sidewalk.

  • It is hard not to regret everything of these past almost three years.
    With that said, perhaps you know why I hated Chicago. 
    There is no future.

  • Summertime!

    {Random update, little substantive thought, just a list of doings!}

    At last it is summer, for me anyways.  I returned home on Saturday last week; packing sure was exhausting.  Time has flown by, and I will [sadly] be returning to school probably this Friday for the summer session.  I spent Sunday with my family and computer (playing Wii & singing a LOT of karaoke on http://www.karaokeparty.com/ [this website is AWESOME if your computer has a microphone; it monitors and scores your singing] & editing my new layout).

    Monday was fairly productive; I woke up at 6:00 AM to give my brother a ride to school (crazy, I know, but mom wasn't feeling well).  Then I returned home, and ate breakfast, then went to Sholom Park with Mom.  That park is one of the most beautiful parks I have been to--so serene and filled with blooming flowers, overlooking a pasture of some sort.  I will post pictures from previous trips, later.  After walking for about 2 hours, we went shopping.  My mom's eyes LIGHT up when she sees North Face and other hiking companies, so she was fairly hyper when we stopped by a fishing store that advertised North Face products.  I stopped by ULTA and bought some makeup.  It's strange; generally speaking, I wear very little makeup  (takes forever to wash off!), but I love having colors, so I have a HUGE stockpile of makeup.  :)   Then we grabbed some food, returned home, and I did laundry, washed 2 cars (now I am golden colored again).  Played more Wii, watched some basketball (YAY! Magics beat the Celts!  Only Game 1 though, keep goin'!), watched the most recent How I Met Your Mother episode (!), and such!

    Today was less productive; I got up at 12 :) , ate fooood, and everything else seems a little hazy.  O_O. I picked my brother up from school and went to Hobby Lobby for a bit.  I am preparing a surprise for my parents tomorrow--it will be their 25th anniversary (will post pictures later!  Waiting for mom to go to sleep so I can set up the display!).  My grandparent's 60th anniversary recently passed.  :)   It's so amazing! :) :) :)

    Then, I took my brother out to Ale House, where we ate deliciously fatty foods and gorged ourselves and still had leftover food.  Which reminds me, mom is now worried about my cholesterol levels.  Life back in the days (cave days!) must've been harder and easier!  Harder because there were no refridgerators and grocery stores, but easier without having to sweat things like cholesterol, medication, and such!  Just pass the days; being fat back then was probably good--a sign of being a good hunter/plentiful food?  Grunt!

    I'm really happy though!  Tomorrow I will see Shadiya for the first time since winter break; there's nothing nicer then seeing friends, especially after school induced droughts!  I feel a little sad about going back to school, because that way I have a lot less time to spend with my family and home-friends, though I'll be seeing a good number of school friends this way.

    New cell phones should be arriving tomorrow!  I will be on Verizon with an LG Dare. 

    I feel so much healthier at home; the food is amazing and NOT fatty the way school food is, and I actually get enough sleep and have been exercising.  I feel like my health has been declining at USF.  I need to balance out more time for exercise; but I am such a perfectionist with school work that it absorbs all my time!  -_-.  I'll have to figure out something to do with that.

  • It is a nice day today.

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    It is a very beautiful day, though a little hot for my liking.  I am currently sitting outside of a dorm, waiting for young man with whom I need to discuss business (re: website for the UGRB).  It is hot, but I am armed with a laptop and some Odwalla.  I've already downed a whole bottle of Mango Tango, and I have a Strawberry C Monster awaiting me; I am trying to use up my flex bucks before school ends, and Odwalla works, since it is tasty, makes up for the lack of fruits (  :(   )...

    I have had a rather frustrating week; my first year in college is almost over; time has flown by and been so slow at the same time.  Sweat is seeping through my dress; this will not make for a good impression (smelly & sweaty!).  That is okay :) .

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