December 31, 2009

• So this is the New Year...

  and I don't feel any different.

  Sometimes I feel like I'd be a bad mother because when I see my cat cower, I laugh.  It's New Years Eve which means the fireworks scare him witless.   But I care about him a lot :], such a cutie!

  .: Happy New Years! :.
  

  I was going to look back at resolutions to see if I had any success with them, but apparently I didn't make any last year! 
  a) I had already given up on them

  -Am I too young to be a little cynical about resolutions? 
  -Or am I too young to make resolutions? 
  -Or none of the above

  b) I was too busy (apparently I got back at the same time from LA)

  Oops, fail!  Well, I know one thing I've been wanting to do for a long time was improve my journal keeping skills, whether online or written; and I think Xanga has helped me a lot with this goal.  (:  Cheers!

  Another goal was to lose weight--I accomplished this on accident, though maybe California undid some of that.    But next year/this coming year should be better, definitely.  I will hit the gym at least once a week...since I have a class there once a week (sea kayaking!)...maybe it isn't at the gym?  I'm not really sure.  Since it is sea kayaking. But the important point is that I will work harder to make myself healthier in a healthy way. :] 

  One day I want to do a triathlon, but I don't think this year is the year, since I have MCATs looming at the end of summer possibly (which reminds me I need to sign up for that -_-).

  Which brings me to a sad point for me: I think I'm going to have to decrease my already decreased Xanga involvement.  I've been having a lot of fun, but I think I'm going to have to limit it until post MCATs.  Back when SATs were looming in the distance, I took an hour out of every day to study for the writing portion of the SATs for maybe half a year.  I was able to increase my score from a low 500 to a high 700.  I think If I can push myself to study for MCATs maybe I won't have to go to some place like Kaplan.  But then again, it's really hard to push to study that sort of stuff, so I might have to take a cram class come summer anyways.  But my goal is to study some everyday this school year. 

  My schedule should be lighter, so that should make my goal a little more attainable.  It's been a while since I've pushed myself to study for stupid standardized exams, but it'll be worth it.  And I think it's important for me to understand a lot of the things anyways :], so hopefully studying won't be a pain.  It's hard sometimes not to mix my own interest with a feeling of dread since it is easy to relate school stuff with stress and thus learning with stress.  But a lot of it is just attitude.  I usually find myself to feel really ashamed when I start finding what I'm learning to be a pain...I might let organic chem to be an exception; except when I was little I thought chemistry would be one of the more exciting sciences.  And I used to beg my dad to tell me about elements and what different elements were needed for...(I guess gen chem stuff then).  But still...

  I think I'll keep using Leechblock to limit Xanga time to 30 minutes a day.  Which might not sound like a lot, but relative to the amount of time I've spent on many a night this past year, it is a really small amount.  I might also deactivate my Facebook, but I think I'm going to wait until the school year starts, that way I can at least keep in contact with my USF friends until getting back...but I'm concerned that I won't be able to keep in contact with friends away from USF, so I might not deactivate...><  I have time to decide. 

  So goals/resolutions:
  Academic
  --Learn!  Yay, can't wait for things like Astronomy and First Aid! !!
  --Better understanding -->Better grades...it's like a two for one deal! :]
  --MCAT...:[  Only want to take it once, so the goal is to do well first time through.  If not, then I can take the 4+4 year route instead of 7 year accelerated, I guess. No sweat, technically.  But who wants to drill for a 5ish hour test more than once?  Need to get over a 30. 
  --Shadowing and research

  Non-academic 
  --Be a better friend

  -Be more understanding

  Sometimes it's hard not to expect exact reciprocation from friends; but I have come to realize that we all express and do things differently.  I can't expect them to do the same things I do; doesn't mean they don't care as much as I do.  (If you see this, Michelle, sorry for being harsh-ish; I haven't been kind to you as my permanent BFF and sister )...

  -Try to keep in touch better

  --> better pen pal maybe too?  Owe a letter that received on Halloween...a few months late...again.  (*Facepalm*)

  -Other

  --Be happier
  --Learn to relax more
  --Sing more frequently; dance around a little more

  (shut blinds when doing this!!--I discovered that people in fact can see into my room from outside [I'm on the third floor, so I thought they couldn't...])

  --Better organization, time management
  --Be healthier

  -Learn to cook !!  (This could be its own separate category also)
  -Exercise more

  I think these are pretty humble resolutions--not unrealistic, but probably not all attainable in one year; a lot of it could be attitude adjustments which can be a lifetime struggle.  But at least I'm recognizing these things...

  Ah, time in Vegas gave me too much time to think (no internet while there).

  But I should start off the New Year in a happy mood!  Not sure what I'm doing tomorrow; the parental unit wants to go to Gainesville to see friends from Chinese school, but I don't really want to join them; the years before when I did join them I had to end up spending my new years and/or Christmas babysitting their friends' kids.  Not the most terrible thing, but not exactly the most fun either.  Wish I could get some sparklers...but fireworks (etc.) are like burning money...(but they're so fun).  The Asian in me is torn.  Lol.

  Hey hey hey hey hey hey hey!
  (1901 -- Phoenix has been stuck in my head for a while...specifically that part)

  P.S. Blue moon!

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