November 24, 2009
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So I'm slightly paranoid, and I'm often aware of numbers, whether I care about them or not. In this case I am applying it to Xanga sub/friend numbers, though that can apply to weight and play-counts of songs too.
So the past few days I noticed the number of people I'm subscribed to had reached 80! It's actually really hard to keep up with so many, so I'll admit, I don't read everything from everyone. Also, not everyone of those 80 are active, otherwise I probably would go insane trying to keep up with so much. But I keep the subscriptions in case one day one of those people will surprisingly post and entry and re-emerge here (so far I've gotten a few surprises, pleasant, one short lived since he's gone again, but the other
...hey Cecelia!)Anyhow, I noticed the number of people I am subbed to/the number of "friends" dropped by one. And while I don't care about the number, in the sense that I'm not striving to have the highest number possible, I care because it makes me paranoid. I start trying to figure, who just disappeared on me? Did they delete their Xanga? Did I do something wrong/did they block me? Why did they do what they did, and are they okay? It's hard to wade through the list and pin-point who is gone; but it isn't a lack of caring that makes it hard for me to figure out who, it's just that it's hard to keep track of so many people, especially when I don't actively or frequently interact with them. (But even when I don't frequently interact, etc. that doesn't necessarily mean I don't care).
It might be silly of me to think about all that so much, but I can't help it. I don't really like when things disappear without warning (or disappear at all, for the most part).
Edit [Dec 16]: I think I figured out who it was. Celestialteapot is gone. :O He seemed to raise some interesting things when he wasn't being too pugnacious
. And he had super cool handwriting, if that matters at all.
Comments (17)
Yep you caught me, I blocked you because you're weird XP
@Roadlesstaken -
lol
...I guess I can't laugh too much about that since I did block someone for those reasons...you know.
wow.. i dont think my subs and friends are ever the same amount ....
but i block quite a few people coz they were creepy >.<
i dont care about those numbers. i care about my the footprints. damn creepers. i put two ppl on blast last night cause i was watching my footprints go up as they were going back to my older posts. a few posts is okay but when you go all the way back to may etc it gets creepy. i asked them what they were looking for. lol
@s_h_a_sha -
I wonder if back in the old days there were fewer creepers around. Yay technology!...O_O
@jeannie_dot_com -
Ooh wow...all the way to May? I usually will scroll a few pages before deciding whether or not to subscribe, but May is quite a ways away. O___o lol, did they respond?
pretty much the person commented on someone else comment on an old post and i was like "i see you creepin on my site...are you looking for something?" and they commented on an even older post saying " sorry,its not what it looks like. im not stalkin you" and i was like " it is what it looks like. and yes you are stalking. im catching you. this very moment." and they replied this morning with "I am actually looking for something.
Since I was interested in that original post of yours, I wanted to see if there were anymore just like it.
Apparently, there aren't. So... yeah. I'll stop." and said " dont do it again. its just weird." lol and the other person said they were looking at my music. o well. its just weird.
@jeannie_dot_com -
By creeping do you mean just leaving a ton of footprints without leaving a word? A lot of times when I'm trying to get a better idea about a person's temperament or personality I'll actually scroll really far back.
lol, or maybe I'm a creeper in that sense. -_-
I usually don't mind people scrolling through my weblog, but if there are a bunnnnch on just my photos I get a little antsy. But then again, most of those pictures are not of me but of my sister since I had a post dedicated to her on her 20th last year with 20 pictures of her.
Haha, with the music, they could've just clicked on the audio link...(: maybe they wanted the context under which you posted the music? Iono O_o.
yeah they were leaving footprints and checking comments etc. i go a few entries back. no more than 2-3 pages but this person..damn. lol
after a while i private at personal photos and make which ever ones i want public.
yeah idk why they didnt just click audio lol
When people disappear or quit of keeping in touch make me sad too, Melinda .
We love a everlasting friendship.We need of that .
I wish to you a happy Thanksgiving.
In friendship
Michel
Lol, it is hard to keep up huh? You wonder? Someone subbed/friended me and I can't even see their page haha, think about that one
RYC : Everlasting friendship ? yes, perhaps I went too further and indeed you are right distance and time efface quickly the steps on the sand . But it is a ideal to reach . I have some pain when I watch the post sof my first years of Xanga and I see how many xangafriends left .
Love however is everlasting , the true love .
I wish you a hapy Thanksgiving ( do you celebrate it ? )
In friendship
michel
I had that happen, and pulsed about it.... then got a bit of cynicism in my responses. :-/
@theacematt2 -
:[ ugh..cynicism?
@phosphor_stars - Yeahh.... a bunch of: "I don't pay attention the the #'s..." .. "you have 300+ ... what does it matter?"
@theacematt2 -
Ooooh...but it still matters, since it's not like subscriptions are taken lightly?...-_- But 300+ would be really hard to pay attention to all! O_O I have enough trouble with my 80something, lol.
@phosphor_stars - Yeaaaah. I -used- to be able to sit down and read them all, but it's gotten too large to do so by this point.
Hence, for others in my situation, my consistent rec-age of other's posts. If it weren't for the universal inbox/pulses/recs/aim&fb linking... I'd never know what was hidden on here, to some extent.
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