October 1, 2009

  • I'm one of those people who most people will either think is really nice, quiet, and maybe a bit timid.  And 99% of the times I act the way I think, and all my thoughts are as nice as they come across.  I rarely think poorly of others, maybe slight aversion, but I generally give a good chunk of benefit of doubt.  Honestly, who am I to judge?  (Nobody!  Exactly, so I try not to when possible, or I logically try to find reason to think better).

    But from time to time I find some extremely brutal things pop out of my mouth.  Things that I didn't even think through, and didn't even mean, completely*.  Then I feel really embarrassed and somewhat horrible.  Perhaps I will explain this after I clear the air with my apology; but I don't know if that is enough. 

    *This happens sometimes when I am caught off guard; I like surprises, but some surprises really don't work well with me.  And I also don't like big leaps; small steps are better.

    I'm not brutal by nature, I am actually fairly warm and fuzzy, though maybe I don't expose that a lot.  (Then people who don't know me at all probably think I'm just one of those cold intellects O_~; I guess it doesn't help that I am very serious a lot of the times.  Depends on the setting--I love joking around a lot tooo). 

    Red Cross officer meeting/movie night tonight!  Hope it isn't anything scary :O I have no guts. o_o (whimper)

Comments (14)

  • Wow you answered my question! I guess I kind of thought you were warm and fuzzy,like pooh bear,Lol...! I was gonna ask are you always so proper and polite. Okay now "Who surprised you and caught you off guard!?" Well since your studying medicine you will be desensitized to so many things like affection,yup. I have friends who are Doctors and Nurses and they say ex-partners tell them how desensitized they were the relationships. keep your ,affection and passion in check!

  • I can pretty much say the same thing. I try to be as realistically optimistic as I can be in situations.

  • @rickystar1 - 

    Oh, okay good, haha.

    Some kid at school; I'll elaborate if he'll forgive me for being brutal. :

    Ah, that is some pretty good advice :) . But I'm no robot! I am very fleshy, very human indeed. Haha. I didn't realize that I sounded proper & polite--maybe it's all the formal paper writing getting to me. It might just also part of me being the awkward person I am n_n. I try to relieve it by adding a lot of faces/emoticons in the writing. :)

  • @Roadlesstaken - 

    Thinking too much can be dangerous too. It makes people paranoid sometimes. I guess the book A Separate Peace (Knowles) shaped me in that sense--it makes me really nervous around super competitive people, because super competitive paranoid people can just be destructive O_O. And I know that I can be competitive, but I try not to and I don't like to be; and I know I think too much sometimes and can get paranoid, but again I try not to. The book is really good, btw, albeit very sad. It is so much easier to just try to see light in people, though with enough caution to not be a total rug. :)

  • @loves_mud - 

    My quoted line on the top of my Xanga a while back was "I think too much" haha

  • @Roadlesstaken - 

    hahahaha sometimes it is fun that being that way; but some days it just drives me CRAZY, you know?! O_~

  • i guess i am just mean then :<

  • oh my...that sounds like an opposite to me. you're too nice-why are we friends? :P i tend to say things without thinking a lot of the time [which you probably have noticed?]

  • @shortstuff3157 - 

    the bright side of that though is that there might be less of a chance of people taking what you said seriously and thus being offended. hehe. but you're an awesome friend to have :) yay!!!!

  • @Bonzai_Nekona - 

    aww, no!! I feel like a lot of the people you bash duly deserve it. :) I'm sure if I were around them I wouldn't have too many qualms thinking the same. Ah, thoughtless/insensitive people :.

    <3! (How fares thee, btw?)

  • hm are you a Sagittarius?

  • @assassynative - 

    Nope; Scorpio! Why? :)

  • haha jw i heard Sagittarius people tend to say things that they totally don't mean in an offensive way but people get taken back by it

  • @assassynative - 

    lol, okay :) . yeah, those moments are rare, so they're pretty shocking when they happen XD. oops! ;)

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