April 2, 2009
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A week of failures!
Sigh!! Not to mention I've lost so much sleep only to do poorly; depressing, isn't it? And I'm trying to shake off the lonely feelings I keep getting. I am so cyclical...I have some extremely happy days, and then days where life doesn't seem to have a meaning or point. I guess I'm in the low end of that cycle at present. =(
On another note, I hope Michelle beats that snake! Back-stabbing bishes aren't cool.
I can't imagine betraying a friend over my ambitions. Unless they hurt me first, but even then I would only try to reverse whatever about me they tarnished. I'm sort of passive like that. Aggressive and SUPER ambitious people make me nervous; even if they're friends. In general though, tt's easy to gain my trust and loyalty, but it's a lot harder to get it back if there's even a hint of betrayal. After that point, I can still be a friend, but I'll be weary and aloof; maybe a little dubious too. I guess this cycle never ends; after the NHS drama back in high school, I thought that by college people would become a little more chill and such. I hadn't felt so betrayed by a group of friends before that, and hope it never happens again. Never never never! If only there were more people with similar temperaments as my own; I am happy for the success of my friends and acquaintances, as long as they earned it. In fact, that applies for myself too--if I earned whatever success I earned, then I celebrate. Wishing anyone unwell or manipulating others for one's own success is evil.
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what happened?
I never knew bout any of this.
oh, NHS...
i'd forgotten about that until just now
@Bonzai_Nekona -
Meh. There was a ton of drama during the NHS officer election time. Most of the anger was between the "Brady Bunch" & the group I was in "Hollister & Co.". i.e. we made a bunch of badges and passed them out, and people from the other group would take those away from people wearing or displaying the badge and rip them up, or they commented about how we were lame in multiple dimensions. Some of them who had talked to me before the elections were sort of icy during the elections.
I was glad in the end that neither of group won, because then there are no hard feelings from losing. 
@snowbunnyy74 -
Sigh...I try not to think about it.
What was happening to my sister for their ASA elections sounded similar and evoked those bad memories(the girl was friends with my sis, and then decided to run against her and then e-mail a ton of members about how she wanted to run because the club would fall apart with the other candidates). Needless to say my sister's friends who received the email from that girl forwarded it onward. =
Dang. Yeah I never knew about the NHS crap cuz I wasn't in it. That's gay, sometimes I hate how people decide how to do things cuz they think it's right or best for them or whatever. And holy crap Sha, I didn't know you still read this.
It looks it was a not so good week Melinda . But don' t worry and go on your way !
In friendship
Michel
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