June 28, 2008

• Today we hosted a dinner for extended family--cousins of my father, numbering 20 guests.  It is such a strange feeling eating dinner with so many people that you hardly know!  Not to mention, since I don't know Taiwanese, I couldn't really understand much of what they were saying...such awkward occasions probably existed back when I was a kid and visiting Taiwan, at age 10, but at least I had an excuse for not talking to them.  So this time, I felt super-awkward!  How wretched...

  Later, we visited my cousin's grandparents; that visit lasted for maybe half an hour, but it was much more interesting and meaningful than the 2.5 hours I spent at dinner...
  -A&A's grandfather is so lively!  Not to mention, mom said he was an engineer before--he showed us some contraptions he created for his wife, who has been recovering from stroke, to rehabilitate her muscles
  -Stories

  I can't help but wonder, what will it be like being old?  Will I be married?  Will my hypothetical husband love me even then?  Who will take care of who?  What will I have accomplished by the time I'm a grandparent/old?  Will I be a grandparent (that should probably come before the previous thought)...Will my mind still be sharp, and my body somewhat robust?  Or will I wither and wilt?

  I don't really want to grow old ...

  And yet, here, for some reason people can't tell my age; today, some relatives asked who was older, me or Michael...

  ME!  By 4 years too, gee.  And people here laugh when they hear that I am 18...

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